“Can you prioritize me like what you did w/ that person in your past?” And I just said YES and I hated it.

The answer should be NO! I don’t know how to do that. Why should I be taking care of you? Why do you want me to care of you? You are supposed to that yourself!!!! or I guess I am still guarded WTF

Why do I feel this rage every time this crosses my mind? Is it because I know that I am compromising something I think is essential in whatever it is we will have? Am I selfish for not being so willing to compromise?

And also, I didn’t do anything wrong. I mean I only wanted to take care of myself. Duh!!! What is so wrong with that?

12/08/2022