HERE. THERE. & EVERYWHERE
Stuck between somewhere and nowhere, struggling, yet still breathing
Would you scream “HELP” when you know no one is coming?
I say, “Don’t! Save your strength. Hang in there and if you must, you crawl and survive, okay? Save your strength. No one is coming yet you have to get through.”
I am sorry you have to be there where you are. No! INHA. 7-24-2022
—marymancee
Here’s comes the bride
Then, in the middle of her stride, she came to a halt
Flashes of worries and questions never asked came running through her veins
Then, the groom felt the depth of her fears, the doubts in her silence, the coldness in her stare
Turning icy cold, she slowly wanted to freeze away
Yet there she was, being left wandering alone
There’s no need for her to melt away, the winter had been felt
And had soon turned the groom into the running ice monster everyone sees him that night
Now, alone she goes, alone she wanders, alone, should she wander ever again
Sometimes I forget that we are all just living BETWEEN THE LINES OF LIFE—between the aches and the joys, between what is happy and what is sad within us. Sometimes I forget that I am not alone in that, for no one lives in either extreme – in perpetual bliss or perpetual sorrow. We are all just playing with darkness and light, we are all just trying to find our harmony.
Oh boy, oh boy! One thing about manipulation is everyone is capable of doing it and I am always avoiding it, if it is not win-win, but dang I think I almost did it to a guy for my own benefit😆
Anyway, I enjoyed this article from Banter Republic. Hope you have a great day after reading this, too.
I find it manipulative that our angry side is always seen as our „true colours” as if when we are happy and being kind we are fake. You could be the …
Dealing with Manipulation
Don’t forget to laugh! Remember “A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor’s book.” – Irish Saying
Always go where your inspiration takes you and remember to always capture the good vibes—marymancee
Daughter: (breaks down days after witnessing his father with another woman) How can dad do this to us? You and I were so happy. Was he not?
Mother: It’s not like that.
Daughter: Then, what is it?
Mother: You’ll understand when you grow up.
Daughter: I don’t want to. I’m dumbfounded every time I think about it. Is this why you couldn’t speak? (Her mother became temporarily mute after finding out her perfect husband was having an affair)
After calming down…
Daughter: I just suddenly got emotional
Mother: This is the very first hardship you must face. You’ll encounter more unbelievable events in your life until you die. It’s inevitable. I said there are those who break down and those who overcome them. If you think about it, it may not be that big of a deal. But for the weak, their entire world may be falling apart. Is your world falling apart?
Daughter: No. All I need is you. And you have me.
Mother: Thank you. Every time I look at you, I’m glad I married your dad. Thanks to him I have you by my side. You win some, you lose some. It goes both ways. That’s the way life works.
Daughter: Don’t worry.
Mother: Your dad was a great dad who made one mistake. Should we resent, hurt, and punish him for that one mistake? Only small-minded people believe in “An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.” Those with a big heart just accept things for what they are. In that sense, I don’t have that big of a heart. I admit it.
Daughter: Then, how big is it?
Mother: It’s smaller than a small dish.
Daughter: Your heart is as big as a washbowl. Is it true that that she (the mistress) calls you by your first name? (calling someone by their first name without honorifics anymore means you are close)
Mother: Yes, I didn’t tell her to.
Daughter: But you didn’t tell her off?
Mother: No.
Daughter: Why?
Mother: Well, a part of me felt bad for her.
Daughter: Why?
Mother: Falling in love isn’t something you can’t control. You can’t help it.
Daughter: Still, it was wrong of her. That’s how it is depicted in the movies.
Mother: It’s fine as long as we don’t do that. Always stay true to yourself. We can never be sure of what’ll happen in the future. Doing so will only prove our arrogance. Just remember this.
S3 E8 Love ft. Marriage and Divorce
I never believed in ghosts until you left, for I could not see you, but I could still feel you. No, I never believed in ghosts until I loved one. xvi
I heard about this husband and wife. They were celebrating their 60th birthday together when tan angel suddenly appeared and said that God is going to grant each one special request. The wife said, ” My request is that we will be able to travel all around the world.” And poof! When the smoke cleared, she had tickets in her hand. The husband put his head down and said, ” MY request is that I’d be married to a woman 30 years younger than me. And poof! when the smoke cleared he was 90 years old. –How Bad Do You Want It?, Joel Osteen
I find it weird that I was excited and totally at peace with the thought of spending money on someone and yet I was not feeling the same, not as ecstatic at all when a few days ago I was planning on spending money on my travel. Why is this the case?
Three days before this, I got excited with the thought of finally being able to travel. I got excited with the planning but when it came to how much I was to spend, a part of me was hesitating. Instantly, my desires died. However, today, someone close to my heart found the courage to share her struggles with me. While and after listening, and also because of what I knew of her as a person, I realized one of the things she needed was a change in perspectives. Based on what she had shared, there was nothing that can trigger the change in her current life and so I thought it was best for her to get away for a while.
Immediately, I started checking for available flights. I was extremely excited with the thought of her being pulled out from her sorrow. The thought of her smiling again, back on her feet realizing that there was more to life than what she was drowning her sorrowful self in was beyond satisfying. Changing her sceneries, letting her see the world would definitely pull herself back up. I did not mind the amount of money I would be spending on her. I was just purely happy and willing. Then, it dawned on me that it was not what I felt for myself few days back. What I was feeling at this instant was distinctly different when I was about to spend money on myself on the same thing–traveling. Why did I feel hesitant to spend money on myself on travels but not when I am to do it for others?
I had to stop and contemplate this for a while.
Then, I came to realize that mainly, I, as a human being have been wired to the following:
I was really really truly joyful and then the thought of my family being upset once they find out about it came. So then, I did not do it. It’s better to avoid conflicts. || Sunday, May 29, 2022
I. Vocabulary Activity. Complete the questions by filling in the correct verbs from the list.
| build | come | create | form | have | manage | project | take | compare |
Vocabulary Activity 2. Match each of the adjectives to an adjective with a similar meaning from 1-12.
| expensive | ineffective | arrogant | trustworthy | suspicious | complex |
| functional | modest | ostentatious | successful | wary | favorable |
Answer key is on the next page
First of all, the main reason I came here is for me to have an avenue to express my thoughts and my unexpressed feelings especially the negative ones. However, I know that feelings and emotions are temporary especially the bad ones so I’m debating whether I should write or not. But since this is the reason I am here in the first place, I’ll just relieve myself. So, you feel happy, ecstatic today, you feel the extreme opposite the next day and I guess it is okay. Or is it?
I have been so lethargic for uncountable number of days now. I just want to stay home and do nothing. I do not want to say this but fuckkkk I am just soooo tired of feeling this way. I feel like I am the stallion in Dreamwork’s Spirit animation movie saying“One moment, I am free. The next, I am not.”
I am so indifferent towards anything else yet anger and frustrations get to me. At work, it’s just so noisy. So loud when in fact she can actually keep it down, Urgggh 🙄 I know it’s beyond my control but can’t she really think there are other people in the room too?
So, what is lethargy? Lethargy can refer to feelings of fatigue as well as a lack of mental or physical motivation. It can be a sign of a health condition. (I googled this.) What kind of a health condition? Well, I read these articles online so feel free to click the link below.
I also asked myself this question, “Does lethargy mean depression?”
According to my Google search, depression is a common cause of fatigue, “Am I depressed?”
Well, I think I am not. I am not sad or depressed about anything. I am just indifferent towards life and also, because I know this is not how life is supposed to be lived, I feel anxious trying to not feel this way (arrrggg insert my eyes rolling to myself).
“Depression is a common cause of fatigue, so you might be wondering whether your fatigue is a result of depression. But just because you’re tired all the time doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re depressed. The fact is there are many underlying conditions that could be responsible for feeling tired all the time. Jan 15, 2021 — source: verywellmind.com
Anyway, I’m glad I am writing here because I actually came across a thought that worked as a switch that turned me back to life and I’m feeing better now.
—marymancee ✨7/15/2022
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